Let me take a moment here......

Sep 7, 2021, 6:29 PM

Following up from earlier, I have made the choice to stop drinking for a while, long while, maybe forever. I don't want to say forever, but we will see how life develops.

Nothing really all that bad, no law enforcement, wife or friends issue, but mainly I found myself just thinking about when that next drink would be or when I was going to be able to get out of the house and go grab a drink. I started keeping liquor at the house, something I never did before my parents passed and now that I have started keeping bottles around, its a constant shot (after 3pm was my rule) here or there, especially at night.

The other day, I was out have beers with my buds at 11am. Not really a big deal on a holiday weekend, but when I got home and my wife asked me how lunch was, I was kind of drunk, didnt want to admit it, so I lied, just said "great" and laid on the couch and took a nap.....during that nap, I missed taking the kids to our pool and then didn't wake up till early afternoon. Basically ruining a whole day.

As you all know. I watched my dad die to cancer and although I dont blame him for cancer or dying, I want to be around longer for my kids. I dont want to miss a pool day/afternoon. I want to be more productive, I want to be the person that I know that I can be.

I also find that when drinking, I go weeks without saying prayers or thinking a lot about others. I am just thinking about drinking. Well, its been 6 days and I pray every night, I am more helpful at home, I am getting back into hobbies and guess what.....instead of drinking beer while my kids play, my son and I have shot basketball every night. God is good, even you don't believe, this is a moment where I do and its helping me a ton.

I can't say I will never drink again at a pool party of cookout, but I can say that I am done with daily drinking and I think I have a new rule that will work. If I am going to have some drinks, my wife has to be around. Its only when I get away from her, does alcohol get away from me.

I wanted to post on reddit as anonymous, but I hate reddit and I thought maybe some of you might be able to relate and I know a lot of you....so if I could help you stop the daily habit too that's all the better.

Several of you told me I would get here eventually, well I am here and thanks for pushing me. I already feel so much better and I cannot believe how my body is responding, especially my mind.